The one thing that most people can feel certain about is who he or she is. But what a person is encompasses a very large span of definition and perceptions. To truly know who you are is an amazing accomplishment but cannot be phyiscally possible. As humans, we doubt ourselves based on what someone says even if they weren't saying it to us.

Ever since I was able to speak, I have been defining and redefining who I am simply by my freedom of choice. With growth came a constant change in who I was based on what I liked at the time. Children are an abundance of change and mischief. The options and choices of a child to identify his or herself to the world is limitless because no one will accept any single definition as truth.

Growing up, I always wanted to be a train conductor, then a teacher, and then a police officer. I tried to identify myself as wanting to be one of those at some point during my younger years. At the same time, I identified myself as an out-going child who loved to talk, run, and be very active. I was always running around and playing games outside in the sun or cold snow of the Wisconsin winters. For the longest time ... that is who I was. A child with no care in the world. The world could have been ending, and I would have never known.

Up until my freshman year in high school, I was very closed to the outside world. Sure, I had been exposed to the world the schools showed me, but I never really paid much attention to the news. I was still a bright child, typically acting like a total dork of some sort. Hyperactive Graham was who I could be known as for the longest time. But what lead to the changes that would begin starting in the sixth grade? What changes lead to who I am today?

I seek to know the answer. The answer lies in the shadows, but I just can't reach it ... yet.

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